May 3rd I had 3 doctors appts. First I went to see the Radiologist. I met with him to go over the treatment I would be needing. We set up a follow up appt. to do the planning. What they did was have me go in and they had this thing that reminded me of a beanbag. I had to lie on the table and put my head and my arms (in an upwards position) onto this bag. It then got hard and formed to my shape. I would then use this each time I had radiation to keep me in the correct position. They then used permanent markers in all colors to draw on my skin. This helps them to make sure I'm in the correct position as well. This took about an hour to do. It was hard laying still for so long. I also go 4 tatoos, something I thought I'd never get! They are very small, about the size of a freckle. All of this helps to keep me in position during treatment.

I also saw my oncologist. He said I was doing great. I am to return in 3 months for another follow up.

I then went to see my plastic surgeon. He decided I needed at least 2 more fills on the expander. Here I was hoping we were done, but he says it is at least 15% smaller than my right breast. I don't think I want lopsided breasts so I am going to go for the fills. When he does the surgery I will get a tummy tuck as well. He is going to take the tissue from my stomache and use it to create my breast. And then I will go back after this all heals and he will lift my right breast as well. Kind of cool, huh? I mean if you're going to get cancer you may as well get a flat stomache and great boobs!

My first round of radiation went well. It was kind of embarrassing laying there with my boobs hanging out, but it had to be done. i go for radiation every day for 28 days minus the weekends. I also missed one appt. because their machine was broken.

The radiation, in my opinion, is worse than the chemo. i thought it was going to be easier, but you know by now how it all goes with me. I was tired, extremely tired. just plain exhausted. This made it hard to do much of anything. With the chemo. I had my good days and bad, the pain was worse with chemo., but I knew how many days it would last. This lasted forever! Just never could get enough sleep.

My skin did pretty well, it is very brown, I'm tanner than I've ever been, then again it is only on my upper left side. It goes up my neck too! And even my back on the left side.

Other than extreme tiredness I guess it is going pretty well. I have noticed that the "chemo. brain" has come late with me as well. During chemo. it never showed up. This is when you can't think straight or talk properly. I thought I had missed it, but it showed up late. My mind is useless right now, I can't remember anything and I can't think straight at all. I sometimes get my words mixed up too. I was telling my hubby about my boobs, for instance, deciding if I wanted to get the fill or not. I said "How much boober should I make my bigs" Meaning how much bigger should I go with my boobs? Strange, huh? I seem to do that quite a bit. The kids get a tickle from it and laugh at me.

I will see my plastic surgeon in July to begin the tissue expander fills and then to plan for the reconstruction.

See ya soon!