April 1 Today was a very emotional day for me. I just felt like crying most of the day. I was talking to my mom on the phone and started to cry. She was worried that something was wrong and I'm trying to explain that I just can't stop crying. Made her cry too. i hung up the phone with her and my dad had come over. I went to give him a hug and started to cry again! Dad starts crying too and tells me I'm doing great, it is almost over. I explain to him too that the chemo. makes me cry for a few days and that my daughters laugh at me. I think it helps them to laugh then to feel bad and cry too. I am so dizzy today too. The pain meds. are helping so much with the pain and aches, but I can't see straight. The room is spinning and the headache is so bad. In the early morning I get sick. I decide to deal with the pain instead of the spinning so I don't take any more pain meds. The rest of the day I can really tell that I'm not on the pain meds. My legs are so sore and I can hardly stand. But it is better than being sick and dizzy all day long.

April 2 Today the kids are back at school after their spring break. I am still so sore and can't do much today. I just sit and rest today not able to get around too much.

April 3 Still have the pain in my legs today. I noticed last night that my right knee was swollen too. It seems to be the most pain in my right leg as well and mostly the knee so I'll have to keep an eye on that. The chemo. makes me swollen too, my eyes are baggy for days after the chemo and my arms are swollen too. I don't do a whole lot today either seeing as I can't move around too much.

April 4 The pain is still strong today. Almost a week now.

April 8 The pain finally stopped on Thursday.... an entire week. Only 1 more to go though so that is good, looking forward to it. Today we went to my moms for Easter. It was nice. My niece and nephew and Sammy tried on a few of my wigs, it was cute. Sammy would have made a cute little girl! it was fun, the younger kids hunted around the house for eggs, too cold to hide them outside! We actually had snow! It was a nice day for us all. Only 4 more days and my last treatment!

April 12 Today I had my last dose of chemo. It was nice. I did sleep for about an hour or so during treatment. Thinking this is my last time is great!

April 13 Today I got my shot of nuelasta. I was so tired today so took it easy and slept a lot. The pain came around 10 pm. The nurse told me to try 1/2 a tablet of the pain meds so I took that and went to bed.

April 14 The 1/2 tablet of pain med does help with the aches, but I can't seem to focus my eyes too well. At least I'm not dizzy and sick as when I take the whole tablet. Today I mostly rested too.

April 16 The last few days I've been sore in the legs again. I've felt really tired this time, more so than the last treatments so I rest most of the time. This morning I got to where I just didn't feel well at all, really hot and just felt sick. I ended up vomitting today, about 4 times and just layed in bed all day.

April 17 Today was mine and Sammy's birthday. Sammy is now my big 7 year old! I felt pretty tired today and ended up getting sick once more today. Took it easy all day. Tonight my mom and stepdad brought us some supper and we had birthday cake. It was nice to be with the family.

April 18 Today my back started hurting pretty bad. I can't stand or sit without it hurting.

April 20 Still the back pain. I can't get comfortable with it hurting, I try to sit, stand and lie down, it just doesn't want to stop aching. Sammy was home today too, he came home early from school yesterday with a fever. He acts okay, but still has his fever so he can't go to school. The 2 of us watch little bear and others. I like little bear the best. We color some too and then he plays his nintendo so I can "rest my eyes"

April 22 Today I felt really good. I haven't felt this great in a long time! We go to my mom's house to celebrate the end of my chemo. It is nice and the weather is great too. By the end of the day I'm getting tired, we went to my in-laws last night for Sammy's b-day party and cookout too so it has been a long weekend. I think I'm finally coming back to my oldself.

I go May 3rd to see the radiologist so I probably won't have any news until then....... see ya soon.....